Face your daylight horrors!
(Except acorns, it is totally fine to avoid those whenever possible. Seriously, they bother me.)
I am an emotional and enthusiastic person, so here there will be feelings! Mostly good feelings, but awkwardly expressed. That is just how I do things.
I have no idea how I am able to function on only three hours of sleep. I have no idea how I could work like this. How was I able to perform all those tasks? I still have work to do, but not work-work. At this point, though, it is somewhat starting to feel like work-work. Because. If I have to explain one more completely logical thing one more time. If I have to explain the concept of actually reading the relevant page on the website, to someone who has been a member for twenty years and should know anyway, one more time, I think I will burst into tears. And that will not do, as one of my goals for today is to cry less than I did yesterday. But I am mourning, and my stomach and back hurts so much, and the painkillers will not kick in for whatever reason, and I could not sleep tonight due to the pain, I am stressed to the point of breaking, and I just noticed there is a hole in my sock and I am behind on so many things I fear I will break soon, so if I have to explain this one easy freaking logical thing one more time, I am not sure if I can take it.
I faced fears today, I dealt with things, I pushed through the pain and somehow got things done, but if I have to explain something that is explained on the FIRST PAGE one more time, I fear I might snap. Not in an awkward, crazy way, but in an awkward curling up and crying for hours way, because I am nearing my limit.
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lyriumspectre said:
my painkillers have not been working very well lately, and i have been in more pain than i usually am. pain consumes every ounce of coping that someone has and ruins sleep. since i got sick, i have often felt like i was going to break from it all.
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a1879 said:
aaah yay “customer” support… explaining all day longs things to people who you *thought* knew things, who make more money than you and.. yeah :) gotta push through. On some days it’s goddamn hard though. patience has its limits.
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autumnesquirrel said:
Your #notes made me smile, because that sounds so familiar, and really it’s one of those laugh so you don’t cry things. *HUGS*
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apostatical-impudence said:
Oh no! Hope you feel better and silly people leave you alone. *hugs*
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djkaeru said:
>< (HUG)!!!
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msbarrows said:
*Hugs* Come vent in IRC if you need to, combo.
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missl0nelyhearts said:
oh hunnybun. :o( i’m so sorry. you get to tears if you need to. it can make you feel better. and we’re here for you, sugar. whatever you need. **HUGS** get one thing done, then another small thing. and the hole in your sock means nothing. :o)
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lythlyra said:
*hugs*
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