Face your daylight horrors!
(Except acorns, it is totally fine to avoid those whenever possible. Seriously, they bother me.)
I am an emotional and enthusiastic person, so here there will be feelings! Mostly good feelings, but awkwardly expressed. That is just how I do things.
My legs does not work like they used to. The nerves are all messed up and I keep losing the sensation in them more and more frequently. I am in enough pain to be back on morphine, so I spent most of yesterday being trapped in eighteen hours of morphine nightmares. The bright spot in my life is that it seems like I have been wrongly informed about my options regarding the uterus, either because the doctor who informed me had no idea what she was talking about (concerning), or gave me the wrong information based on mistaking my age (which means reading my journal wrong/forgetting/not reading it, which is also concerning).
I am not having much confidence in the hospital right now.
I am not having much confidence in myself, either. I only want to curl up and cry, cry and cry, because everything hurts, and when something does not hurt it is because I cannot feel at all.
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ilikemyscars said:
I’m sorry that you’re in pain so much pain again and about your legs and the nightmares. It must be awful to be betrayed by your own body like that. And that you can’t even rely on doctors to do their job right…
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sakuratsukikage said:
*hugs tight* Aaagh, I’m so sorry. At least there’s something, though. Concerning, but hopeful. *hugs again*
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spader7 said:
it’s not fair you have to go through all this ;; all the hugs to you!
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autumnesquirrel said:
Concerning is putting things very very mildly. I also find either of those options concerning. *hugs* I wish I could come there and shake some sense into your doctors. :( *grump face*
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normanee said:
Oh dear *huggles*
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cherith said:
All the *hugs* my dear. Big and little ones to keep you cuddled tight when you’re hurting. I wish there were more I could do, or that your doctors could get their acts together to get you healthy again. But I love you, and I’m here when you need me
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buttsofjustice said:
*hugs* :(
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kisssanitygoodbye said:
I can’t offer anything but e-hugs, but if you want them, they’re all yours.
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moodymarshmallow said:
Oh sweetheart, I am so, so sorry that you’re in so much pain. If there was anything I could do I would, you know that. I’m sending you lots of support from across the ocean Combo, dear. All my love.
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defira85 said:
Oh sweetheart, I wish I could be there with you now. I would have Justice guard your dreams, so no more nightmares, and I would have Karl sit with you and read to you and play chess, and there would be chocolate and a baby elephant. ALL FOR YOU.
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