Thank you so much, for all the e-hugs and well wishes and thoughts and hopes and comforting words, for me and for my friends. Even if we do not all know each other very well, it truly truly helps to not be alone in fear, and to hear that it is alright to feel, even if there are bad feelings, even though there are worse things in the world. I forget it, sometimes, and become a bit paralysed by the bad thoughts. Thank you for reminding me and reaching out and, and everything, it really means so so very much to me, more than I can say. I am not so good with words right now, and I am overwhelmed with all kinds of feelings (and you all give me good ones, wonderful ones, and your support makes such a difference for me), and I am still scared even though it probably is not dangerous, and I hope that it is not but I cannot help but put a foot on the what if path, but - I am doing my best, and I think that this day is a better one, and I will keep trying to face and overcome fears and, and I am really glad that you are here and now I feel sort of silly emotional, but I really am so very thankful and grateful and everything and, now I almost feel that I should apologise for being a bit of an emotional wreck, but that is kind of how I do things? Lots of feelings everywhere, and being awkward, and kind of embarrassing (but at least my heart is in it, and my heart is filled to the brim with love).
And now I kind of feel like I should bury this post under other, less embarrassing ones. I have been kind of a wreck lately, but I think that I am on my way to pick myself up, and face things a bit better. I keep trying. Thank you for being here, and for helping me with your kind words and feelings. Thank you.