Eluvian by *SmaiLika07
I will never ever tire of seeing this picture, and I wish it it could be something that happened. I wanted her to fix that mirror, and to go through it with her. I wanted it to work, I wanted to watch her succeed, I wanted her to be right. I wanted her to have that moment of quiet glorious triumph. She would treasure it in a way that would be beautiful to see, and I wish we could have had that.
Me too. So much. More than any story in the games, it’s Merrill’s failure that I think strikes at me the most. She had such a big dream, one no one else dared to dream. And no one was surprised when she failed. But think of would have come if she’d succeeded. And she was the one with the courage to pursue it.
I am really saddened by how the game sort of reduced her struggle and sacrifice to a cautionary tale about the dangers of blood magic (the extent of it depends on which path is taken, but to me there is always this feeling of “a lesson to be learned” over it), and never focused on her success. Because she did make progress; she cleansed the mirror of the taint, and that is such a big, big thing to marvel over, and the knowledge of how to remove the taint from something could be used for so much good and ought to be studied and built upon further. That was such a big step, cleansing it, and then putting it back together. I believe that given time, she could find out more. Unearthing lost knowledge is not something you do quickly; it is going to take very, very long, and the disoveries made might seem small when compared to how much there is still to learn. And she is doing it all on her own, and I think she is so brave and strong to leave everything behind to persue her dream, and I do not think it has to be over. I think she could go back to it later, having had a break to reflect, and then continue her work and find out how to make it work. The knowledge of the workings of the Eluvians has been lost for so long; what is ten years compared to all that time? I think she just needs more time. Just because she did not get it to work does not mean it is broken; it could just mean that she has not find the way to make it work yet. Morrigan walked through one, but Morrigan had access to more knowledge, and more power. Merrill had to repair hers, first. And she did not turn to blood simply because she was seduced by its power - she said she could have used lyrium, but she had none and so she used what she had. She literally poured her own life into that thing. So I just… I am pretty much just rambling, now, but one day I will make my head work well enough to put everything down neatly to explain why she is so important to me and why I can never see her mission as foolish. I still believe in Merrill, and I like to imagine that one day this image will happen.
I like to think of it as taking place after more years and that is why she looks so weary and wistful, but any minute now she is going to realise that yes, she is no longer dreaming and this is truly real, and she will smile in quiet triumph.